So, Jackson really wanted me to hold him....and so, typing was not happening. But, he just fell asleep, so....there you go.

The past few weeks have been kinda rough--Erick's working at his old high school as a teacher's aide and he's been enjoying the work. But, he isn't making as much as we'd hoped, so things are a bit tight. We've got a few students, but ideally, we need like five more to have a better amount of money in between bills. Doesn't everyone feel like they need more money than they have, though? I mean, even if Erick had a full time--regular teaching, not aide--job, I can't help but think that we'd still be feeling pinched.

Well, anyways. So, Erick's been picking up extra work where he can--volunteering for detentions, announcing girls BB games, chaperoning dances (all sound so fun right?...well, the announcing thing probably will be really fun) Well, Erick's job is only a 10 month gig, so we were worried about making things work come summer. And then Erick opted to have his pay checks spread out over 12 months instead of just the 10...which is fine and all, but that leaves us with less now (which is important because now we don't have to worry about setting aside money for the summer) and that changes how we'd originally set up our finances...SO we could REALLY use a few more students.

When Erick got his first check after we'd set up the 12 month thing, our health insurance came out for the first time too...So, Erick being Erick (no offense, Honey), freaked a bit and said "How can we possibly make it?!" Well, heck, I don't know!

So I started looking for a job---which is CRAZY because I don't want to work AND I just want to stay home and take care of Jackson. And, like always, there's basically nothing out there. But I did find one job that I (stupidly) applied for. I say stupidly because its in Crown Point, and as anyone who lives where we do would know...that's a bit of a commute to make for a part time job. Well, they called me and told me more--they will for sure pay me 9.25/hour (lame!) and after 90 days, if things are going well, will pay me 9.50 (still lame!). BUT since I've worked in a similar position before, when I interview, they may decide to pay me more. But how much more, probably not enough to make a 30 minute commute worthwhile. PLUS having to be away from Jackson 20-25 hours a week, probably like 4 or 5 days. NOT COOL. And I KNOW they'll have me work Saturdays. Doubly Lame!! Well, after taking their customer service thingy, they wanted me to come in and I said sure.

WHY DID I SAY SURE???!?!?!!! What the heck!

So now, I'm stuck. I, obviously, don't want to work a day job and I'd really rather just stay home with Jackson. But I feel bad about committing to an interview and then just canceling. Erick tells me don't worry about it, but its hard to think that someone will think I'm a jerk for going through all this and just ducking out (I say "all this" like I've really suffered...ha!)

To make it easier on myself, I've been trying to think of ways that I could duck out and not seem like such a jerk. Here's some of my ideas:

1-I've accepted another offer
2-My husband's being transferred
3-My husband's being promoted, unexpectedly

Well, those are it....but Erick thinks that I should just call and cancel, that they don't need a good reason for me to not interview. That's valid enough, right?